Reconnected

A few months ago, I wrote about Sean and my decision to leave him alone.

 I didn't write about my friend *Frank,* whom I hadn't spoken to for an even longer period than Sean. Frank walked out of my life years ago, without telling me. But I decided to reach out to him, and surprisingly, he responded promptly and amicably.

Not long after that, I messaged Sean, asking if we could be friends. Eventually he sent me a friend request (I was using Facebook then), and later we chatted. I talked with him about the letter. It turns out, he was never angry with me. He was busy making money.

Frank and I chatted about this and that, but his unexplained departure remained in my memory. Finally, one day I asked him why he did what he did. The answer? He honestly didn't remember. I experienced no revelation, no "Aha!" moment, when everything finally made sense. Instead, this bittersweet reality stared me in the face. On the one hand, there was the unpleasant fact that I carried this question in my heart for years, while he apparently dismissed the issue. On the other, the sweet knowledge that since there was no remembrance of the why on his part, it couldn't make it hard for us to be friends now. In the end, his memory loss outshines my wonder.

 

Reconnecting is a beautiful thing, but I'll admit that it hasn't been the easiest for me. We are all different and we all have faults, which can make interaction difficult at times. Yet while I realize that one day my role may have to change, at this point I'm not walking away.  My loving and longsuffering God calls me to reflect Him, the One Who handles my brokenness with tenderness, the One Who would be there for me if no one else were to stay.

"Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets." Matthew 7:12.

"This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you." John 15:12.

God bless,
Jean